<3 thank you. I do want to do it for me. I’m tired of not fitting into things that I love.
At the end of the day, you know what it boils down to?
An endless cycle with no end.
"I’m so sorry, I want to get better,"
But within a brief amount of time, it becomes:
"I’m not sorry, this is how I am, I refuse to change and you shouldn’t expect me to,"
Over, and over, and over again.
Stop the cycle, and the behavior in retaliation is the most frightening thing I’ve ever experienced.
Knowing that it makes it worse, you kept pushing and pushing.
It had the opposite effect. Instead of convincing me how sorry you are, it terrified me and chased me farther away.
I wish you could understand that.
People assume that I fear for my life, and they don’t believe me when I say I don’t. I don’t fear for my life. You wouldn’t hurt me.
At least, not like that. Not when you have far more efficient ways, as you’ve clearly demonstrated in these past few weeks.
Getting my attention and demanding an answer was far more important than my wellbeing.
And, still, people marvel and wonder how I’m always so stressed, sick, and sleepless. Even now.
I appreciate it. I do still want to lose weight, however. I need to. :(
Because people were giving me shit about it, that I need to lose weight.
May 24th is also International Tiara Day.
Flatmate will be gone for almost a week, so I’ll have various friends checking in over the next couple of days to make sure I’m alive and have food and water.
Today we had Tommee, a very prudish but charming lady who is very conservative and hardly ever swears.
Until she plays super smash brothers.
I’m surprised the neighbors didn’t call the police.
Either way, I’m laughing.
Like ghosts? Then you’ll love Poveglia, a small, deserted island in the Venetian lagoon that’s going on the auction block next month. It’s been called “the island of madness,” “Hell,” and “the most haunted place on Earth.” You’d just love it to pieces.
In other news, Poveglia island is going up for sale.
Who wants to marry me and build a cozy bungalow there?!
I just heard this on some political radio show.
They were talking about, and I quote: “Out of wedlock marriages, they’re everywhere!”
My second favorite? Easily Queen Maud’s pearl tiara!
Honestly, nowadays I only bring out the Mountbatten for major promotional events, or evening appearances (Symphony performances, balls, etc.)